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My gallery is very mixed bag, but that's due to the fact that I lack talent with a pencil and have to make do with what I do have. Inside you will find literature, cosplay, digital coloring, photography, comics, photocomics, and all manners of silliness.

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Tue Nov 18, 2014, 8:24 AM
Time to get that emo journal off my dA page and have something more upbeat. How about an art feature?

Cornered King by RedShrikeOptimus Prime by Dan-the-artguy
Upcoming troubles by BlackSnakeSister-artArt Prompt Exercise 03/30 by WaywardInsecticon
Beast Wars Silverbolt by Dan-the-artguyAutobots transform and rollout! by Chaos-Draco
Defenders of Space Bridge 687-030 by Destron23

What's in it for us? by grim1978Maccadams Oil House by MrBFox
Verity Carlo I by onesummerago  Freelance Peacekeeping Agent, Yes? by KrisSmithDW Transformers Classics the Movie by sydew

BW Rampage by BlackSnakeSister-art


Friendship

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 7, 2014, 9:18 PM
Bear with me while I rant a bit. Or just delete this journal and move on with your life. It doesn't really matter either way.

I didn't have friends growing up. I know, shocker. I had the occasional neighbor kid-slash-playmate, but that almost always ended bitterly. When I was twelve I could rattle off the names of all the kids who I had tried to be friends with, only to be turned against or bullied from the start. Now, they've just all kind of blurred together in my memory. Which I guess is good, I don't think about them a lot. I just keep moving on and keep trying to find friends that will last. But they say the definition of insanity is trying the same thing over and over, expecting different results...

(That's not to say I'm totally friendless these days. shadowcat9279 has had staying power. So's my buddy, Grant. And I'd like to think ThetaSigmaIV and I have something mutually beneficial. RedWolfmoon and I only started talking relatively recently, but she was a huge comfort/moral support during my breakup this summer, so I think of her as my friend and hope it proves lasting. My ex and I used to be the best of friends before things got romantic, but now, I don't think either of us know where we stand with the other. I wish things could go back to the way they were, but I don't know if that's possible.)

If anything though, my experiences made me want a real friend even more. I learned to value relationships as precious gems. Friendship takes work, honest effort and communication. People are not toys you can set down when you get bored with them, and then pick up again at your whim. They're not just there for fun times. When you have a friend, you're in for the good and bad. And when my friends are down, I support them in any way that I can, even if all I can do is be a shoulder to cry on.

This summer I had a minor epiphany. I know I'm not perfect--no one is. Friends, real friends, look past the flaws in someone and see the good in them. Friends aren't just people who you have a good time with; they're people who feel genuine concern for you. This much I knew on an intellectual level, but it's another thing entirely to apply that knowledge in one-sided relationships. I realized that if someone can't appreciate the friendship I have to offer, then that is their problem, not mine. And I am done pouring my energy into one-sided relationships without getting anything back.

Like the one guy who, instead of helping me through my breakup, flipped out on me and didn't talk to me for two months. When he finally deigned to speak with me again, instead of apologizing for kicking me while I was down, chose to attack my entire lifestyle, "out of concern." I can be a forgiving fellow, but you can't forgive someone who isn't apologetic.

And then there's a girl who I've known since she was a kid. I thought of her as the kid cousin I always wanted, and I encouraged her in her artistic endeavors. When she finally started getting recognized for her talent and growing in popularity, she had less and less time for me--and yet seemed to have all the time in the world for all her new talented-artist friends. She could go weeks, if not months, without speaking to me, yet I would always see her posting snippets of RPs and conversations she'd have with other people. I confronted her about it several times. I told her the way she treated me was not okay. She would wring her hands and be apologetic and contrite, then go back to the same old shit.

I get that sometimes people just grow apart. But there were always things I wanted to talk with her about. We both have a passion for worldbuilding in our respective stories, and I always enjoyed comparing notes with her. I wasn't ready to give up on what we had, for old time's sake--until now. A couple weeks ago, she posted on her tumblr page, complaining about how her fair-weather friends are never around when she's down... and it was all I could do not to reach through the monitor and smack her for such hypocrisy. Checking the Skype records, it's going to be three months since our last (short) conversation. And I am done.

I believe this is a step in the right direction, for me. I am finally recognizing that some relationships that are unhealthy for me, and rather than getting hung-up on trying to fix them, I am just walking away. I need to learn to be confident in who I am as an individual and not rely so heavily on external people. I need to learn to stand tall, rather than sniveling and accepting shit just to avoid being alone. It's better to be alone than to have shitty relationships dragging you down.

It's one thing to know these things intellectually... it's another to have the intestinal and emotional fortitude to take the stand. And ultimately, when I am more sure of myself as a person, it means I will have more to offer, physically, emotionally, and even spiritually, to my real friends.

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Thunder by The-SixthLeafClover Rocket Raccoon by stillreflection Dijabringabeeralong Pub by rhianimated Beast Wars! by Dan-the-artguy



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TFCon

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 30, 2014, 4:09 PM
It's a 43-hour bus ride from Tucson and Chicago and vice versa, and it was not without incident. It wasn't until the final leg of my journey that a bus driver asked, no, demanded to see my ID--and even as I was in the process of pulling it out, started screaming at me that I either show her my ID or she wouldn't let me back on the bus. Keep in mind, this was a reboarding, and I had all my stuff on the bus. I was the only passenger she IDed, too, and as much as I hate to play the race card, the only thing that set me apart from the other passengers was my being Mexican. I emailed a complaint to Greyhound, and they promised to deal with her, and they're sending me a $50 voucher for my next ride, though I don't anticipate traveling again within the next year.

But the sleepless nights, bumpy rides, having to go into Texas, and asshole border patrol stormtroopers were all totally worth it to attend TFCon and spend the weekend with my oldest friend. I got to Chicago the perfect time of the year--fall is absolutely gorgeous! Being an Arizonan, I had only ever seen it before in jigsaw puzzles.

I got to meet quite a few awesome people--James Roberts, Venus Terzo, Dan Gilvezan and Alan Oppenheimer (two hilarious guys), Brendan Cahill (whose work you can see below), Sarah Stone and even Seibertron and WaywardInsecticon. And I bought soo many toys. I just wish there had been more Beast Wars merch at the convention, but I guess it's a good thing otherwise I would have come back with no money at all. But I met two little girls there at the convention who were looking for Beast Wars toys, one who got so excited to find Tigatron, but ultimately wound up getting Silverbolt. Made my day to see kids still enjoying my favorite childhood show.

James Roberts is a super guy. I told him he's a personal hero of mine because he too got his start writing fan fiction. We talked a little about the authors who inspire us and I recommended one of my favorite sci fi novels to him--surprisingly, he doesn't read a lot of sci fi. And on Sunday I had lunch with him (well, I sat down and ate while he just shot the breeze with fans in the lounge) and chatted about Transformers and Doctor Who with him. He shares my views on Moffat, and we snickered a bit about a certain previous writer whose name is now mud in the TF fandom. I also got him to crack up at my Rung joke. I just wish I didn't look so goofy in our picture.

And Venus Terzo... Oh, Venus, such a sweetheart. I asked her what she felt about Blackarachnia's relationship to Silverbolt and she said she appreciated how BA remained a strong independent character, didn't get reduced to a simpering love interest like so many other female characters. She sounded like she's still very proud of her character. Beast Wars has had a more profound effect on my life than any other TV series, and I told her how it got me into Transformers, which got me into RPGs, which got me into writing, which lead me to become an aspiring author--and she wished me luck!

After the convention, the organizers had a panel asking for feedback. When I mentioned my two-day bus trip to get there, they gave me a TF Prime Dark Energon Wheeljack figure! So my first Transformers convention was a roaring success, and I can't wait to do it again. One of these days, I'll get myself a gorilla costume and make myself an Optimus Primal cosplay. Although now that I have a Death's Head figure, I kinda wanna do the Seventh Doctor and keep him in my coat pocket.

Moonhunter by Brendan Cahill by JZLobo

Oh yes, and on the bus ride home I sang classic rock songs to a two year old to soothe him. He was enraptured. Now, I'm glad to be home, and I'm richer for the experience.

There was a pause. Then Twoflower said, “You see, last night it occurred to me, I thought, well, the thing is, all this travelling and seeing things is fine but there’s also a lot of fun to be had from having been. You know, sticking all your pictures in a book and remembering things.”
“There is?”
“Oh, yes. The important thing about having lots of things to remember is that you’ve got to go somewhere afterwards where you can remember them, you see? You’ve got to stop. You haven’t really been anywhere until you’ve got back home. I think that’s what I mean.”

-"The Light Fantastic", Terry Pratchett



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Thunder by The-SixthLeafClover Rocket Raccoon by stillreflection Dijabringabeeralong Pub by rhianimated Beast Wars! by Dan-the-artguy



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DA Fanfic Writer by Wearwolfaa Procrastination Stamp by MelissaDalton I wanna move things with my mind by prosaix ELO's Twilight by Raine-Rose

  • Mood: Pleased
  • Listening to: Nothin's Gonna Stand in Our Way -Spectre General
  • Reading: Dark Cybertron

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PLEASE DO NOT SPAM MY PAGE THANKING ME FOR LLAMAS! If you feel compelled to be gracious, just give me one back. But repetitive comments are unnecessary and just clutter my page.
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PLEASE DO NOT SPAM MY PAGE THANKING ME FOR LLAMAS! If you feel compelled to be gracious, just give me one back. But repetitive comments are unnecessary and just clutter my page.
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Oops... I'm sorry, I didn't see your message "don't spam my page thanking for llamas" only after I posted it... I'm sorry STITCH TRISTE 
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It's okay, just be more careful on other peoples' pages. ;)
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bobcatt Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2014  Professional General Artist
I went to Phoenix comic con this year, and just did Tucson Comic con wow been deployed so long  didn't recognize anyone.  But dropped out of art and comics  to go on deployment and never got back into it due to getting injured and dealing with all the fun with the VA.   Most have forgotten me, but it cool can wander the con as an attendee rather than stuck behind  table and stack of sketch books now..
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Good for you.
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