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Twee Decades Owd

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 17, 2017, 10:34 AM

Thirty. I'm freaking THIRTY years old. And yet, I don't feel like an adult. Even making a living taking care of two elderly people for years, I still feel like a kid who's faking it. I remember freaking out when I turned twenty, thinking the time had come for me to "grow up." As the numbers ticked by, twenty-one, twenty-two, and so on, I figured at some point I would stop pretending to be an adult and just be one. So far that hasn't happened. Even with all the responsibilities I'm juggling. This morning I started my birthday off right, with my grandmother cussing me out and then having to clean up my grandfather's shit. And yet... I still feel like a kid in a trench coat.

It probably doesn't help that I never "outgrew" the stuff I liked as a kid. There's nothing wrong with that, but I never severed the link with my childhood that other people seem to be able to do without remorse.

Fortunately, all the crises going on around me are eclipsing the early midlife crisis I was about to have.

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  • Reading: Going Postal - Terry Pratchett
  • Watching: Iron Fist (later today)
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SingingFlames Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
I understand. I just turned forty-one and I still love cartoons, action figures and video games. My hubby's a couple years older than me and we have many of the same tastes. I'm perfectly happy, too. Wouldn't have it any other way. (Even cooler, my mom, who's in her seventies, likes video games - specifically World of Warcraft. You go, Mom!)
JZLobo Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
BreaghaDerryth Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hah - I'm closing in on forty, and I still don't feel like a grown-up. And you know, watching the mess so-called 'grown-ups' make constantly - or even the mess they made of my childhood - I don't really think I even want to be a 'grown-up'. I just don't see the attraction.

I enjoy being a kid, and you know, the more I embrace my inner kid, the more I like me, and oddly, the more responsible I become. *shrugs* I am who I am, and I hope that you'll come to the same conclusion (preferably before the next decade passes ;) ) and just be you. Who cares what other people think, as long as you can live with you.

Happy birthday, and I hope you'll have many more, and that they'll all be awesome :)
JZLobo Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
That's nice to hear! I'm not feeling too bad about it. It's just a little strange to be the same age as Batman now.
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